Believe it or not...

hmm. HMM...BLAH. damn.

so things have been the same as always. surprising? didnt think so. it's pretty pathetic when i have nothing to say so i just sit here and type away random rambling, just so that i'm updating with SOMETHING. ugh. christmas is getting close, and i dont really care. it's lost its excitement. we're not doing presents or anything this year, we cant afford it. yea, its lame.

i need to break out of this damn cycle of boredom and nothingness.

So things are not bad. My weekend was alright. Pretty much just a typical lazy weekend. I went to Angel's baby shower yesterday. That was alright, as far as baby showers go, I'm not really a big fan of them. At least they had games, the last one I went to was really lame. I want a baby, but I know that we are no where near financially able to have one. I dont think James is anywhere near ready for one either. And also, I have to remember that most of my friends with babies are a few years older then I am too...
Anyway, off my baby ramble...I actually enjoyed getting out for a bit yesterday. I got to see Allison and her baby, who by the way is the cutest thing I have ever seen. I really do need to make it a point to start hanging out more. I have just gotten to this point of being so incredibly lame that I dont even know what to do with myself anymore.

So today has been absolutely beautiful. it's been raining pretty much non stop since ooooh about 8am (or earlier!) this morning. it's still going, and is suppose to rain most of tomorrow too. I looooove it. I was seriously considering staying home from work today just so I could sit here and actually enjoy the rain, since we hardly ever see it. Sadly though, I was a big girl and got up and went to work. Work was ok, but I'm seriously getting bored with it. I came home on my lunch break to make lunch. Normally 30 minutes is plenty of time, but I forgot that people in Phoenix tend to forget how to drive when its raining, also they don't know what to do when a traffic light is out. I ended up being about 10 minutes late coming back from break...I dont think anyone even noticed.


Tonight James went to go hang out with some of his friends. I do get a bit annoyed that he gets to go out almost every weekend, and then whenever I want to go out we never have money. It's getting reallllly annoying actually. But I'm suppose to be going out for a bit Sunday, to Angel's baby shower. Which, by the way, is totally random seeing as I havent talked to her in close to a year. Whatever. It should do me some good to get out of the apartment for a while. I cleaned tonight too, so everything is all nice. Tomorrow all I need to do is clean the animal cages and go through the stack of bills and random other mail thats piling up on the counter. Go me.

Well, today went pretty well I suppose. Work was busy enough to make the day not completely drag, but slow enough that I wasn't going out of my mind. I was grumpy today too, but I don't really want to get into that right now. I'm getting so bored with my life lately, I really need to start finding something to do, anything, I just can't keep sitting here night after night and never doing anything. Although, most things to do require money, which is one thing that I am really lacking at the moment. I never should have gotten all those credit cards. And I definitely never should have maxed them all. Bleh. It was fun at the time though. And I do have lots of nice things. But I don't really think it's all worth all of the bills and trouble of paying them all off now. I've got a few things posted for sale on craigslist, nothing that I'm really serious about, but if the offer is right, I'll go for it. In case anyone is wondering what I have, 2 Coach purses, 3 Dooney & Bourke purses, and a 4GB pink ipod nano. So as I said, nothing much, and nothing all that exciting. Just a few things that I might be able to get a bit of cash for, that I don't really use. These next couple weeks just need to hurry up and be over. I can't wait for all my days off. I'm not doing anything, and will probably spend the whole thing bored out of my mind and spending way too much money, but it will be SO nice to be away from work that long.

Such Great Heights
The Postal Service
I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles
In our eyes are mirror images and when
We kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate that God himself
Did make us into corresponding shapes like
Puzzle pieces from the clay
True, it may seem like a stretch, but
Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled
Head when you're away when I am missing you to death
When you are out there on the road for
Several weeks of shows and when you scan
The radio, I hope this song will guide you home

They will see us waving from such great
Heights, 'come down now,' they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away,
'come down now,' but we'll stay...

I tried my best to leave this all on your
Machine but the persistent beat it sounded
Thin upon listening
That frankly will not fly. you will hear
The shrillest highs and lowest lows with
The windows down when this is guiding you home

so yea. i'm definitely not the least bit tired. which sucks since i do have to go back to work tomorrow. ugh. i was enjoying my long weekend. 3 weeks until my time off though. i think i can survive that. jeeeeze i wish i could go back to part time again. those months were great.

Blue October
Quiet Mind
A slow strangle with feet on the floor
I've got 14 angels and we're sleeping alone
In the back of a cave, where the rest of us go
To feel normal

I call baby up. Leave me alone.
I'm in pain but I won't let you band-aid the wound
I'm mad at a stage where I can't even handle my own

Give me a quiet mind and I...
I love you
You give me a quiet mind and I...
I love you
Until the end

Give me strength to be kind... To combine
All the good things in life that were so hard to find
But I have and I won't let them go like I do with my friends

Still bearing voices... From front... From behind
They're the reasons I choose... When to live... How to die
When to cast... When to reel
When to buy... When to steal
When to fiend for the friends that taught me
Being inappropriate will

Give me a quiet mind and I...
I love you
You give me a quiet mind and I...
I love you
Till the end

1. I love pets and animals....but do we really need to have a zoo?
2. Candles and incense are my savior with this many cages.


that i sometimes miss the easiness of living with my parents.

Sooo yay. James went over to his dad's house to watch something on tv and have dinner, which leaves me home being bored. woooooo.. so i think i'm going to clean up a little and then relax a bit. i really need to work out again. I mean, it was working before, and we have a nice little gym right downstairs. No literally, it's about 2 minutes to walk from our front dor to the gym. Its easier to THINK about looking and getting into better shape, but doing so...gaaaaah. Well, i'm going to go....do something i guess. bye.

Well, boredy-bored is me. I feel like I never do a damn thing anymore. I need to clean animal cages but don't have the motivation to get up and actually do it. And I want to do something tonight. But of course, that probably won't happen either. Lame. This long weekend is pretty nice though. Although I'm not doing anything...like always. Thanksgiving was nice. We went and spent the morning with my family, then went and spent a little time with James' family afterward. My parents came over today and put up some Christmas lights on our balcony, and fixed the kitchen where the dog ate it. In a little bit me and James are running to the pet store. We need bedding and fish stuff. Yea...that's about it. *sigh*

well so far today has been pretty ok. one more day to go till the long weekend. then after that a few more weeks before i'm taking my winter break. i'll be off from december 22-january 2. i dont know what i'm planning to do with myself that whole time, but i do know it will be fabulous. i'm also getting some info on a work from home job, so we'll see what all that is about. how i would love to not have to go to work. haha we'll see. at the moment i'm crazy bored at work. we are super slow today. 40 minutes left...it's going to feel like forever. blah.

work today was so lame. i'm sick of stupid people calling. "is 12 noon AM or PM?" i am so not even joking. i had someone ask me that today. i should have told the stupid bitch it was AM. nothing like making people look like morons. gahhh. but then we would end up with something like the lady who spelled just about EVERY word wrong on her website, and then wanted a refund. ummm hello! you're the moron that doesn't know how to spell. meh. end rant.

yes guys. i am bored. bored out of my darn little mind. and also i still have NO idea what is going on for thanksgiving. where we are suppose to be at what times. i cant get a straight answer out of james AT ALL. there's my gripe of the day. i havent done a darn thing all weekend. friday stayed home drinking. saturday had the hangover from hell. i think i finally was able to be up moving around sometime around 5. so needless to say saturday was wasted. today...nothing. a good ole bunch of nothing. yay me.